This is the only place I say the truth...
Forget Perfect, I'm trying not to be worthless..
I woke up crying my eyes off…
Why should I accept living in shit??? Why do I cry every time I compare myself to others?
Maybe cause I'm just worthless… I don't deserve any better than this…
A7a
Can we be just friends? I don't even want that… if we were just friends I still wouldn't go out with you…
I have no feelings what so ever... no love in my heart AT ALL
Damn, I wish the next time I open my eyes I'm either in 2008 or dead…
I admit it, I'm a failure!
"di layali ablak mesh 3aiz a3raf kam…" I believe that was the only hour I was actually happy… "I'll take you to places you've never been…"
I'm so sad it's making me sick… my fever is rising I'm almost hallucinating
I want someone to give me a hug, and say everything's gonna be okay… but I'm not sure if I can prevent myself from doing something stupid
Why have I always judged cheaters??? And considered them bad or immoral?
Noone gets cheated on for no reason.. People who get cheated on totally deserve it! ... Stop judging cheaters!!!
And now I'll go looking for my lone wolf-like guilty pleasure…
Still, a duck can't live among birds…
How can I call you my friend if I have to watch everything I do or say !!! go and fuck yourself
I don't like what I've become… but I don't regret what I'm doing
I hate that sometimes I catch myself playing games… the old games… and then I realize it's too late for that… what can come out of this?!!!
Damn, I can never forget our staircase / rocky chair encounter… a while ago, my dream has come DREAM… okay enough!
Being an asshole was never a problem for me, it was all physically challenging
And Finally, Apparently, I'm the friend all parents want for their kids, but, I'm the friend that all parents do not want their kids to have!
I have noone to talk to, no friend that I can tell everything to... the only one I used to talk to is the one I wanna talk about... and my mom listens, build stories and tells EVERYONE ! (and then I find my brother's friend askin me why are you having problems with your inlaws???)
I'm going back to Drugs… المخدرات حلوة since I can not starve myself to death…
And no more crushes for me, my last crush didn't end up so well… I got engaged.
(I will post this and read it, I dunno what I've written...)
This consists of totally unrelated things
15 comments:
"I want someone to give me a hug, and say everything's gonna be okay… but I'm not sure if I can prevent myself from doing something stupid"
I wish I can Help you in any way =/
Thanks dear :))
ana 7aleyan fi state: come closer, I'll bite your head off :D
I know how that feels, been there!
maybe you should actually bite a head off, will make you feel better trust me!
no need for chewing heads
I wanna listen to you, if you still wanna talk
Ahmad
I already burnt many bridges over the weekend, so technically it's the same
still not feeling better :(
nooon
I can barely speak, I wish I could
but all i say is non sense !!!
I dont know what to dooooo
we always find a way to complicate an already complicated life.
Usually the solution is very clear but the hardest part is to make a decision and commit to that solution.
Rabena ma3ake
you are TOTALLY right !
committing to the solution is impossible for me, eventhough I know that I will feel better in the future I can't manage to start now
I'm kinda close to where you are right now ,I don't need a hug however. I just need to kill someone brutally then wake/him/her up and kill him/her again.
feels like standing on the crossroads in almost every single minute of your time and being blackmailed for decisions all the time, decisions decisions decisions.. what if i don't want to choose at all ! what if i don't wanna go through this circle of pleasure pain, pain and yet more pain!!.. eventually kollo bey3ady ,leaving deep scars though
Nemo Nobody
right now I wanna have a hug, then kill then get killed !
the crossroads are causing me a fkn headache, and the more I try to ignore it the deeper i sink :S
now I'm just living it, till what's hidden is revealed... ama neshof :D
Hello Batabeet :( , i wished this time start my comment wiz smile but ur blog this time make my heart pain , i can fell ur pain but i am not accept ur way to solve it or the idea , i know we are human but not animals ! i mean we have brain if i live in wrong situation , i have 2 option , first one leave this situation and turn it away or solve it , if u don't like ur way of living now talk and face ur problems be strong , ur strong but only on keyboard , try dear try tray in reality , and for the issue that u wanna some one talk u can talk here many people akways chech ur blog , and i am one of them coz i wanna see one time i am happy yged3an :D isa soon wish u all the best and be strong
Mahmoud Hermes
I'm sorry to hear that :(
Actually it's been a while since I posted something cheerful...
"ur strong but only on keyboard " INDEED . !!! true
Thanks Hermes for your support :) it really means much
I'm working on many issues.... hope that everything will be alright soon
Isa :) bakon mabsot when u write something new :) lesa mshoftesh November tsf7tha keda fe el sare3 bas isa i will read 3ashan ashof akhberk eeh :) wish u all the best but i thought u live in state and i think i read in last post u was in maniel so i think ur here if ur here or there htnt5aby meen ?
hehehe I live in Egypt, always have always will I guess
el kotla el masreya, wt abt u ?
me too el kotla w 3ayz 2olk el bent el isa hntkhatb she elect el akhwan :( mosh 3ayz a2olk sadmetny awi w t2reban bntkhan2 most of the time men s3at el antkhabet :( w2ana men waghet nazrha i need to read w hgat kater awi :((( rebna yoster
I wish ur fine aah low tabtly bokhel wtktaby kman :)
Mahmoud, Don't let politics affect your relationship EVER.... kol wa7ed 7orr w 7'alas :D
Read,:) but in the end... ummm.. don't let it ruin anything
I am great
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