Just for my favorite invisible doctor :D , she asked for a post-engagement post…
and PS: This is not a happy post.... here we go...
Wearing rings? Yea? So ? :D
I still feel nothing, nothing's changed at all, maybe cause we've been together for a LOOONG time… the point of happiness just didn't hit me yet, and I dunno what should happen for it to do so.
Another thing, I should stop EXPECTING, cause EXPECTING is a deadly 9 letter word… I should just stop expecting once and for all (from anyone).
I thought when I move to this stage I will be feel different, I will take some positive steps, I will act different even when I'm alone, but I have never been more stuck in my imaginary world
The only difference is that I look at the ring every few seconds and I say
"A7EEEE I'm wearing a ring!!!"
– especially because it all happened so fast I didn't get to feel the normal stages of happiness or whatever… "di 5otobtek... efra7y" as everyone says, bas AFRA7 B EH ? HOWA FI 7AGA BETE7SAL ???? There isn't any fun about it!
I just fell in love with my engagement band (above) the second I tried it on, I have tried like a 1000 more in 100 different places but I got back to this one, just felt perfect with its white diagonal lines... on the other hand, I didn't look the way I wanted to when I'm a bride... and that supressed any good feelings I should've had
A positive point: I don't feel caged al7amdlellah, couldn't afford that
ahhh, and btw, My dude is a fellow blogger, we've known each others through the blogs and blog friends 5 years ago
Unrelated topics – 3 messages I need to send:
- I'm so intimidated by you, it scares me sometimes *Sighs*
- I can't stop thinking that we could've had it all whenever I listen to "Rolling in the Deep" by Adele
- I miss u my ex-best friend, and listening to our memories together which only makes it worse especially that you're totally off the radar.
And one final piece of advice: Taking too much pain killers in order to numb emotional pain is just useless !!! (now that I'm in ♥ with Kitofan)
Also El-Greeny is SO BLOODY CUTE
10 comments:
Wow a post especially 4 me, i am flattered although giving us the finger kinda ruins it but what can i say it's batbeet trade mark :)
first i am really happy 4 u, u know eng. Is just a step of formalizing ur relationship that's why u can't feel any difference but hey the ring is gorgous and suits ur personality
maybe being involved for a long time gave u those feelings but u know at least u changed ur status on Fb and mean stupid girls are now giving u the look and saying shoof el donia b2a batbeer tetkhteb w e7na la2 .. Those sort or retarded talking lol
i am still waiting for the promised 'going out thing'
Thanks baby :*
btw
I'm not giving the finger :P da el "ring" finger :D enty dayman fahmany 3'alat
believe me, i've been getting "the look" and the total envy aktar ma tata5ayalee... wana 3aysha f door kaydahom :D i will be poisoned VERY SOON :D
shoofy emta w I'm in, I really wanna see u
Mwaaaaah :*
As sad as this post may seem, congrats are in order. So wish you the best. and hopefully the happy feeling hits you soon :)
First of all, congrats =)
Secondly, you've been dearly missed.
Thirdly, I don't think it's a sad post, you just overthink and question your feelings zeyada 3an l lozom. It's ok not to feel things at the time just let yourself be =)
*hugs*
Batabeet:
Congratulations big fat time =D and as expected you are always different ;)
Ze2red
thank u dear :)
It's starting to al7amdulelah
deppy
Thank u babe :*
I'm trying to let myself be, al7 I'm improving than the day I posted this :D
Brownie
Thank u Brownie :*
hehehehe I can't seem to be normal ever :D
Alf MAbrook ya Batabeeta ...The ring is gorgeous..
w 7awly te3eeshy eldor b2a bta3 elbanat elma7'tooba :))
Wish you all the happiness in your future life..
hehehehe Thanks Abdelsalam, walahy ba3ml keda w mabtakelmsh 3'er bel debla :D
Thank u dear :)
Congrats , m3 enny 7assak msh so exciting y3ny w beta3 , aknha 7aga 3adya :D , rbna yetmmlk b5eer isA
Thanks ya Ostaz saffa7 :D
everything is peachy now Al7amdulelah =)
ya rabb :D rabena yostor 3lia ana bas 3shan ana mo2reffa :D
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